Helpless
I know I shouldn’t say this
But could you please let go of me?
How many years have I been like this?
Thinking that I shouldn’t let you worry
So I reluctate myself to reach everything you expect from me
Taking every piece of suggestion you make to me
Trying to walk in your shoes
Yet all I become is a total stranger that I am not even acquainted with.
I put on this nice and beautiful mask
Hiding every piece of negative emotion behind it
Yet do you know how much pressure I feel under the surface?
How lonely and frustrated I am after taking off it?
I can’t let you see my troubles.
I can’t tell you I am painful.
And I don’t really have a friend to talk to and share my sorrow.
I am always held in your hands
Gazed under your eyes
You are so afraid that I may someday run away from your sight
May someway be vanished under the sky
You hold me so tight
But don’t you realize you are right smothering me?
Now I am helpless and faithless
I have no friends and have lost my identity
I don’t blame you for anything
It ain’t your fault that make me become like this
I am the one that make myself so ridiculous
I am crying my heart out
I can hardly calm down
I want to shout out loud
All I want is to be more like me,
And not to be over protected!
Nov. 2, 2003
