I want
Angel緋 と 劍心
I want quiet, I want to be at the lakeside of the dusk in order to spend a endless night comfortably. I want to see the light far away in the night in order to have a sweat dream when I am in bed.
(in fact, I just want to have enough sleep.)
I want to be satisfied, so I have to bear the dissatisfaction; I can’t avoid hurt, so I am doomed to be hurt.
(in fact, I just want to tell you I don’t feel well now.)
I want purity because I know in this impure world, every impure person will purely think they have to use a pure way to seek for purity.
(in fact, I just want to say a tongue twister.)
I want to give myself a reason, give a reason for living …
(in fact, I just want to tell you “Give a Reason for Living” is my most favorable sentence.)
How many serious wishes are misunderstood? How much reticence with a good will is ignored? Purity is misunderstood as sophistication; frankness is misunderstood as lies. Human beings are afraid of being hoodwinked, but those who think themselves clever and always tell lies always hoodwink themselves time and time again. The most difficult thing on earth is to face the person himself. But thousands of weak people face the insignificance of themselves bravely everyday. If I want to be a onlooker, a kind and honest onlooker, is ridicule hard to avoid? Do I feel sad or willing?
(in fact, I just want to be a person who can find her soul cruising between light and shadow and who knows surely whether her heart is crying or laughting.)
When today is still today, when tomorrow is still tomorrow, is yesterday merely yesterday? I want to forget…
When today becomes yesterday, when tomorrow becomes today, what will be yesterday? I want to forget…
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I want to finish this article, but I know I perhaps can’t finish it, because many things are still going on, and what I want will become more.
