it's just a start, you'll suffer from a lot more depressions like this! dont blame life, coz life sucks!! what u can do is either to adapt to it, or against it!! it's easy to adapt it, just follow what everyone does, but u wont be happy at all!! if u want to against it, then make sure u have enough courages to be a freak (coz u're not following the flow)!! it's hard to change life itself, but try to change your mind a bit, and be optimized! coz there's nothing else u can do!
if u feel really bad because u're in high school and met a lot of strangers... then i'd tell u these are nothing!! when u go to college, u'll meet a lot conflicts too. and when u're graduated, there're tunnes of troubles waiting for u to take on!
and i guess what u're feeling bad of is just an identity, in fact all teenagers are!! well... what i mean is... like you, u're a chinese, and being americanlized, it's hard to avoid but u're struggling, coz u still think u're a chinese! at the same time, everyone is being americanized, if u dont follow, u'd like a freak, if u follow, u dont feel good... (well... i'm confused with my words too... haha, sorry!)
well, i seldom heard stories like yours, coz my friends would either still being "Hong Kong" themselves, or being amricanized, canadianized, aussilized... and i chose to be a "hong kong", so i never give a damn on the identity!!! so when ppl asked me to adapt the aussie life style and culture, i said, "* it!!" and i'm happier than ever when i was clear with my identity, and i'm proud of myself as a Hong Kong!!
some said may be u need a bf, but i dont think boys help!! u'll have to help yourself when nobody does! and to be a bit religiouse (coz i'm a christian) i'll pray, and i'll find the comfort and answer from GOD!! God is cool!! :)
[color=color=crimson]Lizard: no f word thank you:p